It has take a couple of days to think straight again, I really did feel on Friday that I had been put through a mangle and been wrung out - even at housegroup in the evening I wasn't really able to articulate my thoughts which is not like me at all!!
I suppose that because I had decided to give my absolute all to the interview, I laid my heart on the line for them - It was very personal and every question delved deeper into things that for most of us it is not usual to share with 15 relative strangers.
Most of the time in our lives people check out the outside of us - our appearance and maybe look slightly at who we are on the inside. The group I sat in front of on Friday did the opposite and might have noticed my outward appearance but spent a long time trying to find out who I am on the inside.
I was as honest as I could be, and was rewarded with a 1 for communication skills and a 2 over all, I have since Friday had the chance to talk it over with a dear friend, my husband and my Superintendent Minister and finally the pieces inside me that were jolted about are beginning to feel more settled again.
I now have six weeks to wait and recover before the final Interview's, good job I have three services and two essays to keep me occupied in the meantime.